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And when that moment is empty, isn’t every world ever created nonexistent? Isn’t the future unreachable?


There comes a time in everyone’s life (at least I think so, I hope so) when they come at a crossroad, crossroad of choices. Sometimes it feels like you have to choose to enter a door, but you don’t even know what’s hidden behind that. Sometimes it feels like the choices are endless and at the same time there is no choice to make. We live in a world full of paradoxes, full of questions waiting to be answered, full of love and emptiness. But what happens if you just simply don’t know?

You don’t even know what’s going on, you don’t even know the questions and you feel the pressure of the universe to answer them. But can you? Can you, if you don’t even know what’s wrong, if you don’t even know what you want?

And you’re not scared of emotions, not even anger, not even sadness. You know what terrifies me the most and keeps me awake every night trying not to collapse? Emptiness, having a hole so empty in you. You being an empty hole…This destroys me, ruins me.

Sometimes it feels like everything under your so-called categories of life is well planned and you are on the right track and soon, you will see the bright results. But what if this doesn’t fill you up anymore? What if your so called categories have all turned into emotions to be felt and moments to be remembered? And you are out there not even having a key in a world where you are surrounded by doors waiting to be opened, chosen?


So, you just lie out there staring at the empty space where emotions feel like a fantasy. Will this matter in 10 years?-you ask me. What a ridiculously pointless question. Sure it will. When it’s the only choice and it feels self destructive, sure it will. A single moment matters because it changes the whole process to the future. And when that moment is empty, isn’t every world ever created nonexistent? Isn’t the future unreachable?

So, now that you get it, can you please (I beg you, please) help me fill out the emptiness and take me to the state of knowing where I belong? Can you please love me?

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